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Friday, October 19, 2012

2 Steps forward and 3 Steps Back…arghhhh

 

So the question is…”How has "Unglued" changed your life?" and "How are you applying it to your life?".

Well, I am much more aware of the feelings and emotions building and because of what I’ve been learning through the book and OBS starting to get a better handle on things.  Physical challenges are making things harder though.  First I have ADD and secondly I suffer from chronic and debilitating back pain which affects my body in many different ways.  When I’m with people I put on my I feel fine smiley face and sometimes it does help being with others because it takes my mind off of the pain for a while.  Anyway, all those things tend to contribute to my becoming “unglued!”  However, I am trying to learn how to take a step back and stop, maybe even walk away before I totally blow it again.  Right now this is fairly easy since my son has moved out and it is just me and my cat.   It’s harder with my dad however when I’m with my dad I am a true stuffer or maybe I should say “the silent martyr”.  He is 81 and has so many medical issues that I don’t want to hurt him because there are certain things he does that drive me crazy.  That’s my problem not his, but then how do I work my way through this without stuffing and making myself miserable?  I keep telling myself that someday when he is no longer here I will long for those things that bug me now and I really do know that so I tolerate and stuff.  Ya know, 2 steps forward and 3 steps back.  I know Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  So I keep plugging away, praise God I’m too stubborn to totally give up. 

Oh by the way, I’m not even on the right chapter.  I think i’m still on chapter 6, I have the book on my kindle and it is too hard to go back and forth.  I seem to only be able to handle one chapter a week but I’ll get there eventually.

I’m am for sure “a work in imperfect progress!”